Saying Goodbye

“Gone. The saddest word in the language. In any language.”
Mark Slouka, God’s Fool

Yesterday was a sad day… a very sad day… my parents lost their beloved Buffo.

I feel so sad… hard to describe it in words… I feel down and hopeless…

I feel sad because Buffo is no longer with us but most of all I feel sad for my parents because I know how much they loved him.

To be honest I don’t really know what happened, my Mum didn’t want to talk, she was supposed to call me back but she didn’t… if this is hard for me I can only imagine what my parents are going through right now…

Why is it SO hard to say goodbye?

Our pets become part of our family, some of us treat them like partners or kids… they are our friends, companions and become a big part of our life…

I am not good at dealing with loss, grief and death… I struggle a lot in these moments… I always try to find someone to blame, even when I know there is no one…

I know that death is part of life and there is no escape from this one, but still… I struggle a lot…

In moments like this I wish I was a very religious person, maybe it would be easier for me… maybe it would help me to explain why things like this must happen… maybe it would be easier to deal with, to understand, to cope…

Yesterday our Bunk ran away whilst on the morning walk. I was so scared; scared that something will happen to him, scared that I will not find him; scared that someone will take him away… as it ended up he was waiting in front of the house… now I wasn’t scared now I was mad. I was happy to see him, totally over the moon but at the same time I was mad… because I had just run around the village looking for him, because I didn’t know what was happening to him, because I was terrified I would never see him again. A few hours after this I called my Mum… I just wanted to say “hi” and to get The News… now put into perspective my morning drama felt like nothing, totally a non-event… which made me even more mad with myself… how could I got so angry at Bunk… he just went for a wander…

Anyhow…

if you are a pet owner…

Love your pets, go and hug him or her and remember that they are not going to be here forever, so every moment counts! Don’t get unnecessary cross (just like I did yesterday), enjoy every moment because the time will come one day and you will have to say goodbye.

RIP Buffo 2008-2014 Run Free My Friend If Love Could Have Saved You, You Would Have Lived Forever
RIP Buffo
2008-2014
Run Free My Friend
If Love Could Have Saved You, You Would Have Lived Forever

40 thoughts on “Saying Goodbye

  1. My first and 2nd dogs both lived to 18, I don’t have one at the moment, but after spending so long with any creature they’re definitely a very big part of your family and I was devastated when both of them left. I’m sorry for your parents.

  2. I’m so sorry to hear bout buffo babe. I totally understand what the feeling. I’ve always had Rottweilers at home and I’m 24 now. We’ve had a few and I know that saying goodbye is the hardest. There was once when my dad couldn’t take it. The vet had said that our dog Roxy, is in too much of pain that it is only best if we put her to sleep. Dad had no choice but to say okay because she couldn’t walk anymore, so he said his goodbyes, told the vet to go ahead and he took a long walk. xx to you and your parents

  3. Oh I am so sorry to here about buffo. Pets are part of your life and family. I was devastated when my first pet dog Tansey died when I was 19. You are right we should appreciate every day we have with our loved ones. I hope you and your parents are ok x

  4. Aww this is very sad, I’m so sorry. I too cannot get my head around death. It feels so evil and wrong, even though it happens to every living thing. It’s not fair. Beautiful picture of a handsome dog x

  5. I am so sorry for your loss. Loosing a pet is so heartbreaking. I remember when I lost my dog. It took me so long to move on. I am sending you hugs. xx

  6. So very sorry to read this Agata. Our elderly cat has just been diagnosed with a soft tissue sarcoma, and whilst he is 18 – a good age, I am so very sad to hear he hasn’t long to live 🙁

  7. What a beautiful photograph I am so sorry for your loss. The loss of a pet has a huge impact and you must let yourself grieve. I hope that your parents are ok, it is a very sad time and it does make you look at your own family and appreciate them a little more. Much love xx

  8. what a lovely picture, it is always sad to say good bye to your beloved pet, i never had a dog myself, our latest pet was a hamster but he was very ill and we had to say good bye to him and its been over a year and i still cant look at his pictures, i loved him so much even though he was 2 years with us. So sorry

  9. I agree with you, that’s the hardest part ever. And I have no clue why it hurts so much even after years…. I understand what you felt as Bunk ran away, situations like that are so scary and they make me mad too. Please give your parents a hug from me….

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